can u let me off?.
but i have no legs to run.dilemma
...
i have about THREE days.
to find someone who u love, or to love; can be a bliss.
losing sleep at a very wrong time.
im gonna lose a few kgs again i think..
felt bloggy. hahaha. so came here.
is this the beginning or beginning of the end?
hello da jia.
okay ppl.
the last post was nice rite!
At some point, we are single. And it’s good to be single, for this is a time we get in touch with ourselves. Ideally, we find our centre, we reconnect with ourselves and with our friends. We revisit our goals and dreams and chart out how we envision our life path to be. And then we set out on our journey to strive for what we aim to achieve.
im sooooo tired.
i looked at my calendar,
Monday, July 28, 2008
4:31 PM
or even less.
to complete:
maya environment. (at least 2 buildings, modeling, lightings, textures, etc.)
motion graphic thingy. (its a longer list, i dunno i in charge of what. =x )
post-production ( i think i will try to finish it tmr in class. =/ )
production planning. ( this one ah! die! harry potter. gosh. i nvr touch it for weeks again. better start again. still got alot paper work. tues must start. but maya comes 1st)
I&E ( i haven do ALOT of the online things. but i think i dragging it. hahaas)
camera and lighting effects. ( im lucky i not very much involve in post production of it. but prepared to help out anytime.its like over the weekends to brush up everything. so not that jia lat.)
basically! after this friday, im 50% freeman.
but. wat lies before me is. ALOT.
but..
i only feel like sleeping now. hahahaahs!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
1:55 AM
well, i guess im missing out this part pretty much recently.
im so tired. but guess im gg to start working again.
i seriously think there's sth very wrong with me and the month august.
like 3years going into 4 years straight things have been happening. zzz
i dun have much to update also.
just breathing air everyday.
slp and eat and rot and grew horizontal. =x
bad. very bad. stopping these. hopefully.
arghhh. i try to make myself slp.
ytd fell asleep at a very wrong time.
damn. but, its over. i guess.
Friday, July 25, 2008
12:18 AMmy words have no legs to run to u.
its been so long i said sth to u.
im too busy, or perhaps that's an excuse.
but. i did seriously miss u.
being packed tightly for one week made me skipped sch today.
and i might get debarred for missing it.
anyway everything wun slow down their pace.
two more weeks till i can be less busy. i hope.
im losing strength to continue sometimes.
too many stuffs. and im a loser. =/
no more time to play, to have fun, to talk bad.
i think im really childish afterall. (okay, i know it all the while)
but i really did alot reflections recently.
but also kinda pointless. since i wun really express myself.
just hope everything goes fine.
think i'll let myself rest instead.
i need sth to recharge myself.
but i cant find any.
i hope i can jia you.
you too. jia you..
Sunday, July 20, 2008
12:37 AM
getting complicated.
yet its that simple.no help.
no need.Thursday, July 17, 2008
9:47 PM
at this rate. headache and dun feel like eating.
sound so unlike me.
then also, busied with sch work.
is really busy. but i somehow like the busy-ness.
sound so unlike me again, i know.
im going to work.
sound unlike me again?
well.
i have to go do my school work now.
yea. and u all think this is not me.
i think so too.revoked pain.
Monday, July 14, 2008
10:55 PM
so tired.
my life is so different now.
and i asked some questions constantly.
but yet again, reluctant to answer them.
hais.
i think i can speak more abt school.
basically that's wat abt me recently. zzzz.
not into after effects nowadays cuz creativity juice is hard to manufacture in my brain.
prod plan also. i got no that very organized personality.
post prod getting worse as i spend lesser and lesser time to edit it. but.. still will finish it.
maya, well, doing more?. i stil cannot believe i actually do so much of the homework that i can 'dream' of it. my lecturer shud really be proud man.
camfx i still alrite. as long as, work can be done. hmmmm.
sighs. then i and e. well. till then.
which reminds me, rain quitting his job on 25th.
today i still thinking to keep longer hair.
then he just called me and ask me when go cut. zzz
i jokingly say he want quit le ah, in the end really...
but for a better prospect at town so alright la.
must start from scratch again. but perhaps its worth it.
i feel like writing longer. trust me. haha.
but i dun see why i shud write that long to turn ppl off by wordy blog.
so.
BYE
Sunday, July 13, 2008
1:22 AM
done workS, slpt late, wake up early, go out, came back late, cant slp. =x
sighs.
describe my life recently. BUSY!
nono, is TIRED!
damn. its weekends. but still got so many stuffs stacking up.
august 8 is soooooooooooooooo far away!
may i have 48hours a day?. or give me 10 days a weeks.if u wanna try.
ido.Thursday, July 10, 2008
10:43 PM
ytd was sharon's birthday. had a small, tiny celebration with her.
quite pathetic to me, but she say its alrite. =)
HAPPY 19th BURSTDAY! =) haha
then..
when i came back here, then i realised, i still haven reach my 8 cups a day.
but got 4 cups la. i bring water bottle to sch lehs okay. drink plain water.
let see how long i survive in this. hahahahs.
but i got eat healthier la. more or less. =S
but i really din smoke. the more u want to quit. u keep thinking of it u noe. tsk tsk tsk.
but slp and excercise jiu.. have to wait weekends?.
so packed everyday! damn.
sighs. why is holiday taking so longgggggggggggggggg.
but holiday i gg to work. like, full time. for $$$.
hahas. just got these tots recently.
then most ppl cant find me again..
and projects bombed again.
god please please please bless me.
and i really not in any good temper recently.
hais.
busy. i dun like to be so busy.
cant even slp enough. damn.
ARGHhhhhhhhh.
sian-ed
i dun feel like doing my work. =xi wonder, but im busy.
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
12:17 PM
i 'set' my mind on something.
to get a healthier me.
so you people can see me live longer. but...
is soooo funny.
here..
i've decid to drink at least 8 cups of water daily.
(used to be drink 10 cups during secondary days. now i like drink 1 or 2 cups daily only. and i mean all liquids i consumes add up to 2 cups. -.-" )
STOP smoking.
(yes, i see ppl clapping. so every one pls try to stop me from even social smoking)
increase my freaking blood count. =(
thus, i will eating more or wat i shud be eating. which, actually i eating all the time. so i dun understand either. zzz.
but i cant run away from milo and orange juice le. and no coffee and tea. but i dun drink those also la. unless, lemon tea! which i guess. *guilty*
excercise more often. now this is funny.
but guess, it means im gg to workout more.
SLEEP MORE! shud i include this?. hahahas. i actually do need it.
please remind me, for those i see more often.
hais.
time is never enough recently. from now.
i have lesson from 1 to 5.
then meet manlin them.
till night, cannot slp. must do homework.
( trust me i will still slp WITHOUT doing)
then next day morning lesson.
afternoon help manlin on the stall( shud be)
then evening meet angie.
then friday morn gotta go sch.
and is kelson's bday chalet?
which also reminds me, i haven get back to wl.
i having difficulties to get back to ppl nowadays. =x
okays.
my headache is here again.
bye humans.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
11:42 PM
=x
okays, anyway, im very tired.
do a short blog and i shall go sleep.
if i can. hais.
just here to 'complain' the unfairness. LOL.
today tuesday le. so soon. i gg to have a very very very busy week. sighs.
sunday went bugis with my dearest bro! went to walk walk. then as i sorta dunno wat to get her for her bday, so treated her to eat instead =) was very nice whenever im with her. =) GAN DONG!!
ytd went vivo with wh and imelda. fun.. lol. imelda really funny. went there to get sharon's present la. less than 24 hours she will recieve it. so its okay to say. and tmr night i meeting them again. with lot more ppl.
today, went vivo again! with angie. cuz gg shopping. which spells the unfairness! becuz i suppose to get more things then her but in the end i got nth except food! and she got her some of her stuffs. at least sth lo. sian. hais.
then i ate ice cream, was so sad that i took this,.jpg)
cuz i really nvr get anything else! except dinner and this! sighs to the max.
and for her...jpg)
unfair!!
hais. okay la. just complaining cuz i said i will complain.
and im lazy to continue bloggin abt anything.
zong zhi, till saturday, i will be fully fully fully packed. everynight. and morning is sch. &^#$%^&*( 1 more month to holiday! =(
Monday, July 07, 2008
11:27 PM
We feel happy. We feel contented hanging out with friends and being by ourselves. We may even reach a point where we decide we are happy singles, and we seem to be more suited to be singles, for that’s when we are constantly in touch with ourselves, and we do not lose our identity and self-worth over anyone. We are loved – by our family, friends and God (if you have a religion) – and we are doing well in our career.
But is it really so? Or do you think there’s a possibility that subconsciously, you are just afraid to be in another relationship? I think it’s a really fine line. I have come across many people who have been single for a rather long time (2 yrs or more) and they start to get so used to the single life, that unknowingly they develop fear of being part of a couple. They begin to question how is it like to be attached, what do they have to do, what do they need to give up or compromise. They then start to feel they are not ready to be attached, when actually they are, but are just afraid to be in a relationship. They forget how to relate.
Some extricate themselves from their previous relationships with so much baggage that it takes them years to oscillate back to equilibrium. While they are searching or waiting for the time to be “neutral”, they are constantly afraid -- afraid of the old issues cropping up. Out of fear, they start searching for the other containing characteristics from the opposite spectrum, completely opposite that of their ex’s. They think they are ready, but they are not. Their choices very likely fall within the category of being “extreme” and “unlike them”.
Others find themselves in the comfort “single” zone that they can’t help but see a relationship as something that will be a risky investment. They become fearful of taking risks, of following their heart, of the unknown, of investing time and feelings in someone, of sacrificing for someone.
That is not to say those who have been single for many years are just afraid to be attached. I’m sure there is an equal proportion out there who enjoy being single simply because it suits their life priorities and that they haven’t met the right girl. I’m sure when they come across someone suitable and it’s a mutual like for each other, they won’t hesitate to give their best shot to this new relationship.
I admire those who are able to hold out until they are certain they have found someone whom they truly want to be with, rather than jump into one relationship after another because they either have no courage to be single (and this want companionship) or they short-change themselves and settle for less simply because they want to be attached (thus being attached for the sake of being attached). These are the ones who will be able to find themselves during this period of time while ensuring that they lead a happy, meaningful and fulfilled life.
Thus to the singles out there, please do enjoy your freedom, your time and single-hood. Be clear about what you want in someone before getting yourself into a relationship. Don’t be afraid to face your own issues and fears. Know why you face certain fears or have certain issues. Self-awareness is the first and largest step towards self-healing, and towards building a stronger mental and emotional you, a more confident you who won’t allow herself to be stepped all over like a doormat. Keep your mind open to knowing more and different types of people to allow you to understand better what you can or cannot accept, and what traits you desire in someone. And when you reach this stage will you be a truly happy person, regardless if you are single or attached.
I wont see you tonight
so I can keep from going insane.Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeahWednesday, July 02, 2008
9:16 PM
it says, "no sleep for you tonight"
yes, gonna chiong work again.
every wed is the same cuz of thurs.
sighs.
the sem gg to end, so means i will be busier each day so much, that i will wanna go out more, then i die when its deadline. self-discipline comes in the picture. but apparently i dont seem to have any. zzz.
and i gotta listen to daniel powter's bad day over and over again, cuz doing music video production of it. and its like trying to make my day worse. :(
i started thinking what's the traits of the girls i like, then i came to a "conclusion" HAHA.
(not in sequence?)
1. Smile/laughter, which ever u call it.
a confident smile, a warm smile, a 'melts me' smile, etc.. :)
a 'i dunno how to explain' kind of laughter. =DDDD i just know is which kind.
hahahas.
2. CHARACTER!
sooooooooooooooooooooo obvious sth i go after.
things like.. straightforwardness,
smart yet stupid, strong but weak. oops.
hmmm. unknown confidence or independent yet still not that independent.
not over-powering? okay, i 'admit' i 'like' to be under power. =/
small women not for me. =x
but i wanna to understand me though, if possible.
just be at the right kind at the right time. LOL.
hard to explain lehs. hmmm.
3. others like, i also dunno, but i noe i dunnit a pretty face or a gorgeous body to attract my attention. its always the character, and the killer smile. lol. its the feeling. the .... hmmm. im loss for words. just feelings.
chemistry and not physics. ;)
and i stop thinking... hahas..
just being random..
if anyone sees anyone like this, pls give HER my number. =)
alternatively, u can give me HER number.
haahahs.
alrights, i think i got one that fits in the picture now, but.
its too far away. and if i didnt die tmr.
okay, i have to go have war with harry potter.
take care everyone.imsorry.
