hais.
可怜的我。
happy one year.
and 我另一方面很不顺利
真糟糕
人笨真的没药医
大家一起祝我好运吧!
and thanks to horse for helping me!
greatly appreciated!
i owe u one.
and the rest is up to me her.
压抑着某种心情,某种情绪。
affected.
impossible to be invisible.
ahhhhhh.
for that 1hr i sat, and i think.
for i know i lost it.
half empty?
things got very much fucked up again.
valentine's day.
now i know what i want and what im gg to do..
i just wanna believe what i want to believe.
ahhh fuck.
7:38 PM
感觉很复杂,但还又清楚自己想的和要的是什么。
也不知道为什么会这样。
谁可以来告诉我?
实现不了的事,最叫人遗憾。
1:37 AM
mesmerized.
*melted*
p.s i love you?
2:43 AM
im soooooo tired.
i shud just go to slp.
hees.
goodnight.
11:27 PM
for that 2hrs, i sat, and i think.
for that whole 11 hours, i sat, and i think.
for all was, i think.
i think i need alot more thinking.
nono, its not starting or ending.
just pure need to think.
for that whole semester.
222perhapsanothermeaning.
11:07 PM
it my part.
nono, urs.
11:07 PM
half full?
trying.
give me time to smile.
even though after today i hand up the proposal is my holidays,
i dont feel a thing.
i think its my problem?.
but fuck, why?
is i dunno how to communciate?
or im really different for the things i do?
or i dun fit into this class?
or is really my classmates?
or i really not enough effort?
or i need time management lessons badly?
or wat?
compare to the past, im really putting in more effort, i really cant change too much too fast.
ive been attending school, trying to do work, trying to be nice, trying to be good. trying to do the correct things, esp at the correct time.
trying to make myself more useful, though my mouth still sprout alot nonsense.
but all the work i get and expectations, and stress i get sucks.
making me more emotional also. i think everyone hates me.
my projects, all turn out sucky. classmates have a thorn in the heart. i dunno isit true cuz its me. or just me.
photography was time consuming and bad, stboard i didnt draw nicely, anifdn is lousy, 3d art is the only okay de. though process is like.. bad again...
then now writcom give me fucking shit again. but is really cuz i din put in that much effort?. i dun undestand but i think yes, but my effort shrink also, cuz wr do too much. and that way..
im fucking stress out.
to think being really stress out when everything ends. wtf.
if anyone wanna find me, no need.
i'll be at home. no to outings until i sort out.
i need to learn how to be a proper person.
again.
1:21 AM
single mode.
things got very much fucked up this new year.
acceptance.
you dont have to know me,
cuz u seriously dont at all.
9:32 PM
or maybe im just getting definite.
trust me. its in almost all aspects.
2:08 AM
u made my day.
and made me smiled
even with these nonsense in my life right now. =)
9:40 AM