. and time cant heal this damage anymore

Friday, November 30, 2007
7:43 PM

how can i say,
how can i describe,
how can i speak.

no one understands.

till the end of the story,
its.me.alone.

its my mistake.

its.me.alone.
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7:43 PM

Tuesday, November 27, 2007
7:25 AM

sometimes, i just wanna be wilful.
and be alone..
but life is pressing me.

idontunderstand.

its.me.alone.
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7:25 AM

Monday, November 26, 2007
12:46 AM

one week din update i guess.
not much work, but still as busy.
lazy to say about my life.
just sick of it.

its.me.alone.
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12:46 AM

Sunday, November 18, 2007
12:54 AM

blinded by the truth.
deafened by the lies.
paralysed by the actions.
disabled by the words.

what can be left?.
even when everything is not right.

n...mu? thanks. sry.
='(

its.me.alone.
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12:54 AM

Friday, November 16, 2007
10:49 PM

grrrrr.
so many many de homework.

next tues storytelling got test must 'study', got reflection must update, got to show 1st draft, ard 2 pages long. zzzzz need to think lor.

then photography got to take nature and man-made. by 23/11.. need plenty of time and effort, especially must go rent that camera again.

then.. writcom i still own mr wong a example para by mon, or rather sunday. and got a 3 paragraph homework by 10 dec. and fyi, its not easy to write paragraphs in this module.

then 3d art, got solo presentation on next next week, need plenty of research and time and effort for the presentations that i haven start on. and the weekly reflections haven write since week 2, its week 5 now.

then.. CATS, minimum of 30 ideas from my brain, by next week. i got 15 liao. but still far, and no more of those ideas. its not easy!!!

and on top of these.. got SW make up lesson. which is gg to waste my time.
and the RED camp, i dunno included anot, but.... they ask me go...

and i dunno still got wat.. the above alrdy alot liao. to a slacker like me..
hahas. and i dunno need to kill how many braincells just for those ideas and plot.

so that is how busy i gonna be. even though i cut down on my work. a lucky thing maybe.
and im home earlier nowadays. too tired also..
anyway.. i just dun like homework. hais.
but.. must do la. not for others, for myself..
see.. im growing up..
so sensible. -.-"

its.me.alone.
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10:49 PM

Thursday, November 15, 2007
10:09 PM

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
been starting to dislike myself more and more.
and it aint a good thing u see. =/

school's been quite ok quite bad.
been doing my homeworks but also nvr do alot of homework.
still last minute till cannot.
and tired till cannot.
ppl always ask what im busy about.
maybe there's really sth wrong in me.
haizzzzzzzz.
few modules killing me.
others also no where better.
but still ok bahs. dun wanna complain too much.
grow up liao. =x

hais. oh.
and cutting alot down on work.
maybe not even continuing..
see how things goes bahs.

life is getting tiring.
this week get to slack more.
but however, other deadlines and work are piling up.
slack now = die later.

is bored..
unexplainable.
laziness.
sucidal.

its.me.alone.
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10:09 PM

Monday, November 12, 2007
1:54 AM

as every of it reminds me..
sometimes things is better this way.
or.. it always work better for me this way.
not really sure sometimes but
i just need to be definitive for one time.
the time haven seem to come.
but its enough to let me see thru this.
everything will find it place and fit in..
no worries till then.
let nature take its course.

its.me.alone.
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1:54 AM

Sunday, November 11, 2007
12:51 AM

i want a happy life.

its.me.alone.
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12:51 AM

Friday, November 09, 2007
10:48 PM

im feeling so fcuked up..
----

Felt like i'm breaking down
feeling just out of place
Like somehow i just don't belong
And no one understands me
feel like running away
feel like locking up myself
to a place no one ever finds me
and with the music on turned up so loud
That no one hears me screaming

cuz no one know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when I'm down
To feel like i have been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save me

feel like being somebody else
sick of feeling so left out
desperate to find something more
Before my life is over
seems like I'm stuck inside a world i hate
so sick of everyone around and myself
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside i'm bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like,
When i don't even know what i want.
this is killing me.
everything.

----
this fcking life is getting more and more fcuk up.
with the fcking things and fcuking ppl.
and i'm getting fcking tired,
cuz of the things they fcking do
and the things i have to fcking do.
i hate. i really hate.

its.me.alone.
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10:48 PM

Tuesday, November 06, 2007
11:42 PM

i just won the bastard award.

and i want to curse and curse the worse word in the world.
end of the story,
just let me die.
fuck.

its.me.alone.
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11:42 PM

Sunday, November 04, 2007
12:06 PM

so sick again. as in, psychologically.
hai, its sunday.
oh, and 1st entry in nov. 4th alrdy.
tsk. so sians.
later gg work.
haven do my 50-word short stories.
damn lo. guess tmr morn bring lappie to sch le.
and im not gg to be late for writcom.
no matter how early i leave for writcom, im always late. =x
haiz. only 12pm. awaked.
actually i woke at 10am.. zzZzzz.
and at night cant slp. wtf.

feel so indescribable..
messed up i guess.
sometimes wanna treat myself better,
but i wonder why im liddat.
too many things.
too many.....

its.me.alone.
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12:06 PM