. and time cant heal this damage anymore

Wednesday, October 31, 2007
11:30 PM

maybe i shuden end my october entries so pessimistically..
so fast november le. damn. =x
oct is all abt working for the 1st half..
schooling for the 2nd half.
and working in between.
things had gone up and down.
been damn sick in the middle.
nv go sch and mia from everyone.

or maybe things gone better.
but not really in that sense.
yes, i can do so call wat i want alrdy.
but somehow, its not enough.
hanging in the middle of the air.
or.. i can nvr find the steady place to stand.

so far sch's been quite fine..
just anifdn killing me.
and photography is boring to me too.
writcom, 3Dart and storytelling rocks my schooldays.
im trying hard to atttend sch and listen to lessons.
is improvement. and.. consistency.. haha. try.
and btw, IS suck too. LOLS.
for SW and CATS. is C-R-A-Z-Y.
i got a long story i tell guili today.
shall not repeat. lols.

hmm. is quite sian of this life.
and i haven been meeting up bball mates like sn!
no time.. =( really sorry.
anyway, i'm thinking..
to work lesser. see how..
and.. maybe learning class2.
still thinking. cuz im really busy. hais.
but.. yet..
for now, maybe just let things go this way.
in a sense, what one have or dun have in life might be fated.

growing up is so stupid sometimes.
wished i was older sometimes also.
ok. there's only one time i wished i was older. haiz.
but.. forget it. its ok..

i'm sorry for the neglection.
i know clearly, this is the 2nd time.
which i tot i promised it wont happen.
im sorry. i noe sorry doesnt help.
but trust the words i last told u.
and have some faith in them.
i know wat im doing.
and but i know too,
i really love her.
sorry.

its.me.alone.
wrote at
11:30 PM

Monday, October 29, 2007
2:21 PM

im feeling so sick of my life.

its.me.alone.
wrote at
2:21 PM

Saturday, October 20, 2007
10:33 AM

im dying.

its.me.alone.
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10:33 AM

Wednesday, October 17, 2007
4:51 PM

be ready for a wordy and long long post.
haas. though i feel like slping now. =(

im home alrdy! early rite?!
but can be even earlier one.
but i went bbdc mahs.
zzz.

sickness getting more yan zhong.
throat damn pain. still got cough and flu. then fever still on.
and i went sch today. cookie scold me. lols.
dun let me eat her fries. tsk. hahahas.

if i eat med and rest then will hao bahs.
but.. im not gonna eat any med. LOLS.

okays. anyway, later i gotta go post wordpress.
hopefully, i do it.
since im home. its soooo seldom.
if not for her ah. and im really worn out. =x
and i do the assignment for ytd today! gosh lo.
so unlike me.
ahahahas. provided later i do..
hees.

hmmm. stuffs are gg quite fine for me.
though sch abit sucky.

ytd totally tired till.. i no energy to continue anifnd..
well, almost whole class dozing off i guess.
then got into damn rain.. then i got a fever. =(
or before that?. my classmate say i look feverish. tsk.
and despite that, i did some silly stuffs. =x

today choose SW and CATS.
zzz.
and during cats, the lecturer say "okay, we only have 5 guys in out class"
then everyone, or 2/3 of the class starts pondering.. " 5 only? not 6 mehs?"
make a guess... hahas.
then separate to boys and girls.
then a girl came over and say,
" i tot u're a guy! thats so cool!" diaossss.

got prettier girls in the IS class. but too bad. not my tea.
and even if my tea, i alrdy set my eyes on one le. hahahaaahahhss.
i cant stop talking abt her. hahas.
i thnk im getting real irritating nowadays, esp to purple!, gi and wx.
even eve?. lols. bo bian bo bian. BEAR WITH IT! it MIGHT be over soon.
hahahas.

and im like sooo guai today!
cuz i ate mee hoon kway for breakfast,
then porridge just now, but i drank lemon tea =x
cuz i tot plain water wuld realy hurt my throat then sugared drinks.
ahas.

and so... this is a long post that very long din appear in my blog.
for now, im gg to rest well. my head really splitting.
and everyone pray for me for tmr and many tmr after it. =)

its.me.alone.
wrote at
4:51 PM

Monday, October 15, 2007
5:14 PM

oh. so sian.
im in sch now.
finally, sch holiday ended.
so sad. i'm not hoping that it wuld end.. =(

hahahs.
so this two months of holiday..
not too bad.. not too good.
but good things did happened.
undeniable. =)

hmm. so the time now is 5.17PM.
i still at sch! having lecture. gosh.
and i reach sch 7plus am this morn alrite.
god. this is how i gg to spend my mondays for half yr.
=(

after sch jiu go home pei brother bahs.
hais. i got myself a sore throat on the 1st day of sch.
damn.. haiz.
but.. maybe not a bad thing also. =x
diaos. hahhas. sians lo. hmmmmmm.

finally, a step is made.
but is it gonna be enough.
everyone tell me not.
well, almost.
wat abt u.
i need to noe.

its.me.alone.
wrote at
5:14 PM

Saturday, October 13, 2007
1:21 PM

haiz.
sian lo.
like falling sick le. =(
maybe not enuff slp. tsk.

arghh. sch reopening after tmr.
8am lecture. siao liao.
hafta wake damn early.
but also not bad bah, get to see my long time no see de classmates.
hahas.

so bored, gg to bath liaos.
later gotta go work.
i think wun be extra busy bahs.
hahas.

ohhhhh. siaaannnnns.
boredddd.

goodlucktome. hmmm

its.me.alone.
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1:21 PM

Friday, October 12, 2007
12:37 PM

soooooooooo tired.

got to take a 'rest' for the past two days.
but busyy till. no difference.
and i soo feel like slping now.
but hafta go work. =(
bo bians. nvm.
reluctant to go face sths also.
tsk. jiu ming.

most special presence.
killing me.

its.me.alone.
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12:37 PM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007
12:45 PM

i just cant do it. haiz.

alrites.
some "medication" i took made me forgot abt, NUMBER.
seriously, and things will be in peace till saturday,
hopefully the medicine can last that long..
dun understand nvm..
just that, i will stop complaining cuz i stopped my brain thinking.
or maybe not me. someone just did it.

i dun understand why im liddat lo.
making things hard for myself.
when nth shud be stopping my acts.
but i just kept holding back.
the words u said, the words she said.
im not trying to.. but i dunno either.
just hope everything turns out to be better.
im sooo selfish.

its.me.alone.
wrote at
12:45 PM

Tuesday, October 09, 2007
12:51 AM

okay. very long no blog.
too lazy and i forgot got blog this thing..
hahas. abit kua zhang.

erm.. weekends stuck with working.
and sad things. =x
hahaas.
tired lo.

today no work but i woke at 8am.
cuz i culdnt stand my mum's POWER. bth.
sooo wenta have breakfast with parents.
and she happily drag me to hosp to visit bro after that.
and then again to clinic do blood test.
needle not painful, is that plaster. tsk.
and i finally get to go home.
then wenta meet angie and her bf.
wenta eat sakae. and back to je.
went imm slack. and home ard 9 plus.
cuz i tooooooo tired le.
miss my bed. hahaas.
but till now i haven slp. lol.

and lastly,
wish me good luck everyone. =x
for everyday. hahahas.

if i culd, i wuld.
i guess =x
im annoying. haa

its.me.alone.
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12:51 AM

Saturday, October 06, 2007
11:21 PM

haoooooooo fannnnnnn arhhhh...
haizZzzzz.

seems like my life recently always sooo sian.
dunno why also.
maybe i also no mood to enjoy or anything.
been working. but working been bored due to some reasons.
haiiiii.

hope sch reopens soon.
but reopen maybe even more sian.
cuz of all the travelling. and work to do.

haiz.
shall not say le.
nth to say recently.
nth interesting.

hopetoseeyousoon.

its.me.alone.
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11:21 PM

Friday, October 05, 2007
11:52 PM

haiz. wat a day. =x
busy at work.
woke up ard 1pm. lols.
cuz slp too late ytd.
eat le bath le then went to work.
hees..
so siannnnnnnnnnnnn.
some ppl noe why.
argh.

tsk.
tmr and sun = working.
monday most prob gg out with sis.
cuz she exams over, i owe her de.
hmmmmm.
bored till can.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

我很不想让你找到离开的理由
藏在我心里害怕你离去
imissyou.

its.me.alone.
wrote at
11:52 PM

Thursday, October 04, 2007
12:26 AM

MY TIMETABLE-

MONDAY-
8am - 12pm
Photography
Lecture and Tutorial
***4hrs break***
4pm - 6pm
Written Communication
Lecture

TUESDAY-
9am to 12pm
Storyboarding & Storytelling
Lecture and Tutorial
**2hrs break**
2pm - 6pm
Animation Foundation
Lecture and Tutorial

WEDNESDAY-
8am - 10am
Sports & Wellness
10am- 12pm
CATS

*gg work after school*

THURSDAY-
9am - 12pm
Written Communication
Tutorial

*gg work after school*

FRIDAY-
2pm to 6pm
3D art

SAT & SUN-
WORK/ ~~PROJECTS~~

-----------------------------------

hectic.
LOL.
cuz i slacker.
then cant tahan bahs. =x

after a busy busy sunday, i gotta wake up for monday 8am lecture.
and 4hrs break. tsk.

to show KOKOCRUNCH,
i put up this post. LOL.
and Purple!, my photography the lecturer is
SIEW KEE LIONG.

haizZzzzZzzz.
btw, my goal for this sem will be,
achieving a higher attendance.
ahaha =x

pull and drag myself to sch for lessons.
haiz. that wuld kill me. =/
GOD BLESS.

its.me.alone.
wrote at
12:26 AM

Wednesday, October 03, 2007
11:02 PM

haiz..
time to update bahs.
else spider webs building up..
hmm.

been slackingg. or maybe not. nth to do.
all busy working or studying.
no one want to have fun. tsk.
bored. and only went work today.
not busy also. haizzzz.

sch starting in less than two weeks.
hmmmm.

next week gotta enjoy =x
hope so.
many stuffs to do also.
cant imagine when sch starts.
so lazyy lah.. tsk.

haiz...

lastly,
imissedyoulikehellllllll
haizzzzzzz.
whydunwespellit. or.. we cant?.

its.me.alone.
wrote at
11:02 PM

Monday, October 01, 2007
1:17 AM

sians.
stepping into october le.
zzzzz.

bored till can recently.
haiz.
many things ah!
too little stuffs also.
boooorrrrreeeeeddddd.

hmmmm.

its.me.alone.
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1:17 AM